MIA CARMEL

July 2006

I saw somebody that has a breathless charm..
But as usual, it’s for my eyes only..

I can have that somebody but from a far.. hehe!
Silly of me to think of it that way huh.

Yeah but that’s my sad reality..
It’s just not meant to for me.
But when can I ever meet my knight and shining armor?
That’s my million dollar question!

I’m really a helpless romantic!
I don't believe in destiny.
Destiny is nothing but a fantasy.

Reality is one hell of a ride!
A ride that keeps on spinning and spinning on my mind.

Ahh.. Love.. What is love? I dunno!
Don’t ask me! hehe!
I once had it. But now, I can’t find it in me.

It’s nowhere to be found in my sweet memories.
My dreams have been shattered long before I begin to mutter.
Dreams that motivate me to keep on living,
giving me hope to face the sanity of my being.

Now I’m bitter. Bitter as I can be.
Can’t blame myself for what has happened to my past and me.

I know time will heal all wounds..
But when will that wound ever heal?.. (*sigh..)
I’m tired of being sorry for myself.
I did my best and I believe my best wasn’t good enough..

Well enough of this crap!
The kind of crap that does no good to me.
Now that I’ve found a breathless charm,
nothing can stop me!