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Dear Joe,
I would like to thank you for choosing my letter. I wrote to you because I have no one to turn to. The two persons closest to my heart are the reason why I wrote to you.
Jay and I have been very close friends ever since we met in college. We would eat together, watch a movie, and go out on gimmicks often. He was a shoulder to cry on. There even came a point wherein I ran away from home and I slept in Jay's house for a few days. His parents know about the close relationship we have and they know we are only friends.
Joe, we have our own special someone and we would always talk about them whenever we would go out. Even our respective special someones would allow the two us to go out together because they know Jay and I are best of friends.
3 years after we graduated from college, we bumped into each other in one of our common friend's wedding. Jay was with Diane, while I was with Robert. Joe, I didn't know that it would be the most unforgettable wedding that I would ever attend to. When the sock and bouquet of flower were thrown, Jay and I got it respectively. He was asked to put the sock in my feet, our college friends were teasing and shouting at us. It's okay though, because we're used to them, but I was surprised to see Jay blushing. After the sock was inserted, our friends requested for a kiss, it's not a difficult task because were friends, not even our partners would oppose it because they know our relationship. But before he kissed me, he uttered the words "I love you" to me.
Joe, after that, I felt different. I felt something I haven't felt with Jay for the very long time that we have been friends. Joe, we would go out without Diane and Robert's knowledge, I know it is wrong, but I can't help it. I asked Jay, "bakit ngayon pa?" but I still followed what my heart told me to do. Sooner than I thought, our hidden relationship came out in the open.
Joe, last summer, one of Robert's friends saw Jay and I dating. Robert understood and figured that Jay might have something he doesn't, and would never have. Right at that moment I knew I had to choose between them. But Robert followed his previous line, saying that he can't imagine life living without me.
Jay told me that he already broke up with Diane, to make-way for our relationship. Joe, I know that whatever my decision would be, it wouldn't make everyone happy. I tried to break-up with my two-year-old relationship with Robert, but he wouldn't let go.
Joe, I love Robert. He's been so good to me. I don't want to hurt his feelings anymore; his friends know that I keep on going out with Jay, even if it's still 'us'.
I believe that Jay and I have the strongest foundation any couple could ever have and that is friendship. We have been together through thick and thin. I never imagined that Jay and I would ever be more than just best of friends. Joe, if Robert really loves me, he has to set me free. I know he deserves someone better than me; someone who can love him more.
But just like any other love story, all good things are not meant to last. On our first year anniversary, Jay and I got involved in a highway accident; a speeding cargo van on the opposite direction lost its brakes and rammed the side where Jay was seated. When I regained consciousness I saw Jay's hand holding mine, his head and shirt was full of blood, but he was still able to say "I love you" before he took his last breath. Joe, it was a split of a second that I will remember throughout my life.
I would also like to take this opportunity, to thank Jay wherever he may be, for adding color to my life and for sharing wonderful memories that I will remember forever.
Joe, when I was in the hospital, Robert would visit me often. He would hold my hands and whisper "I love you". But, my feelings for him now are different. Joe, it seems that my heart went with Jay when he passed away. Is it true that when a heart dies it can no longer live again?
Joe, I am not yet ready to give any one a chance to have a place in my heart, perhaps I may never be. But Robert is so insistent. You see Joe, I love Robert, that's why I do not want to give him a chance anymore. I don't want to hurt his feelings.
I haven't seen nor heard anything from him since I turned down his proposal to give our relationship a second chance, but I'd like to say sorry for all the things I have done to him. I would also like to thank him for setting me free. Just like some pigeons, not all can go back to their master's home; some find a better place, some find a better partner and some just die lonely. Joe, in this relationship, no one went home happy, all of us became losers; losers to the love we thought we will have forever.
Thank you for giving me a chance to share my story, it helped me a lot just to have shared this with you and it eased out the pain I have inside. More power to Love Notes!
Truthfully Yours,
Charissa
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Dear Charissa,
Thank you Charissa for sharing a bitter part of your past with us. Sometimes, we ask ourselves why love leaves us at times when we have given so much of ourselves that there is only little left for us to start all over with. A lot of us have built dreams with people we hoped would be with us forever only to wake up to reality that there is nothing permanent in this world. Love comes and it goes. People share their lives with us and then they leave us. Life is a constant cycle of finding and losing, of making and breaking, of dying and living again.
Charissa, when our hearts die, it stops beating but love doesn't share the same fate. I don't believe that love ends permanently in eternity. When we feel that love has died, it hasn't and it will not. It will only close its eyes into a deep slumber that will, one day, be awakened by someone who holds another key to our hearts.
Robert may not have that key and it was just fair when you made it clear that there is nothing more that he can expect from you. When love hurts us we shut our doors close and live in a dark and lonely world where we think we would be safe. Charissa, you cannot stay in that world forever. One day, you would have to open a window to see if the storm is over. Otherwise, you wouldn't know when to get up and live your life again.
Let us always remember that in life, there are no mistakes, only lessons learned. In loving, there should be no regrets, only appreciation for the joy it brought us. There is a time when life stops when love ends. But, we don't have to stay in one place forever. Our lives should move on even when everything else around us make us feel that it shouldn't. For there can only be happiness when we stop living in the past. Love will only find its way back when we start giving others the chance to share a little of themselves with us. We may be miserable now, but there will always be someone out there who holds another key that will unlock the pain and bitterness in our hearts that keep us from taking the chance to love again.
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